Yesterday by The Beatles

Yesterday. I'm thinking about that song right now. It's a very good song.

I ask myself:

Am I sad, disappointed or defeated? Tired or about to do something really bad to myself? Do I hate myself? At this very moment? Yes. Do I want to feel better, do I want to heal? Yes. Do I want the pain to be gone, to vanish? Yes. Do I want some of it to stay? Yes. Do I love myself? No. Do I want to feel pain? Yes. Am I sick or am I hallucinating? I don't know. Do I care about the future? No. Is it because it scares me to death? Yes. Is it because I hate myself? Yes. Is it because I can't accept happiness? Yes. Is it because I am unstable and inconsistent? Is it because I lie to myself? Is it because I am crazy and delusional? Is it because I want to be free of pain yet somehow I succumb to it? Is it because it gives me purpose and makes me feel as human as it can be? Is it because I am sick? Or is it because I am scared? Is it my fault.........