Deception/Heartbreak

I need to get this out right now. Because it is too much to be borne. I am now currently in a place with no gravity and no sound. As dark as it gets. I'm floating, I am lost. The kind of pain I'm feeling is indescribable. It is the kind of pain that makes you wish you want to die. As I really want to die. It is in my stomach, unbearable pain, and it gets to every fiber of my body. I haven't eaten. I slept to enter a limbo, to escape but I couldn't. As soon as I open my eyes, it hurts. I am lost, totally, utterly. Abandoned by a used to be a dear one, in the middle of nowhere. What bothers me the most is I have foreseen this day; I expected it but apparently, I had such high hopes and whatever. People's past is a dangerous thing, that need to be taken seriously when one decides to get attached and have feelings for someone. I, with all the rational thoughts and arguments, slipped and let myself fall into a pit. Now, I'm suffering, my insides are ripping, and I can no longer say a word and be amongst the living. I didn't want to bring up details to what this is about, because it is in a simple word, is a heartbreak and a deception. I am in hell; a knife was put in my heart, and I am roaming the earth not knowing how to get rid of it and still be alive.